js

2011-01-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

today is probably the worse night?i dunno...

im still not there yet..

what am i seriously good at?

what are my talents?or i dont have any?

is this what they meant by jack of all trades but master of none?

whos there to listen to me?

inside i know you wont be there anymore, but im starting to experience what does 'desperate' means...

2010-11-17T09:16:00.001+08:00

my life feels like its missing sth,

probably its becuz of u,

its missing u,

feeling crap early in the morning..

2010-10-05T12:42:00.001+08:00

have u ever wondered how many things we've lost since very very long ago?be it material stuffs or friends, or some dreams that u are aiming for?

I think i've lost countless number of things which i cant even name them all now.

I've lost opportunities before, I've lost friends before, I've also lost dreams before.

is that the reason why we should have treasure all the things we have so that we wont have to think back and regret wad should we have done or shouldnt have done it.

things are so complicated...

after enlisting in the army, i felt that i've lost alot of precious things.first and foremost is probably freedom and time.having booking out on saturday and book in on sunday is totally shit where everyone gets to have their weekends for their family and friends.

i think that when u dun have yr time for yr family and friends, u will lose more things. things like friendship, probably the memories will fade away slowly...family wise, u never know when they will leave u. this is the kind of feeling i hated most...where the obscurity of everything just make u feel so insecure and u duno wad comes for u in the future...zzz

i really need a jar of encouragement...

2010-09-26T14:47:00.002+08:00

hello blog!its been a while!

Its my passing out ceremony in like 5 days time!hurray!!i've been looking forward to this day man, which means more freedom compared to a recruit, which also means stricter punishments for us if we do anything wrong.

To me, army is both fun and tiring, even though im in pes c, i felt that my vocation is super "mental strength consuming"...i just hope that all the hard work will pay off and able to lead a better army life.

Anyway, my piano skills dropped from bad to worse, haha!really lack of practise la. And i really think i need alot of time to practise.oh!and i started playing a new instrument!!!GUITAR!i never thought it was fun until my bunkmate played and he taught me a few basics of playing. hmm, probably ill start taking guitar lessons too. i saw the course from NSS CC, and it was quite cheap.xD

SIAN LA!book in so early today...zzz

2010-08-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

its my last few hours at home before im leaving for my 1st day of enlistment. this is so depressing, i duno why, they say should go in happily so i wouldnt feel emo...sianz...

anyway, i wont be able to play piano for i think two weeks?im afraid i will forget how to play some songs, so i decided to record this pathetique sonata by beethoven. its just the starting though, i haven fully master it yet. but i really love this song!=))

cheerios for all my friends in NS now!

2010-07-26T18:48:00.004+08:00

this is the first time to use my mobile phone to blog...kinda cool!!im at the stadium nw helping andreas to time his 2.4km...(ps.im too lazy to run)thats why im the timer...xD...

anyway, tmr will be my TP...really hope i can pass it so i dun waste anymore money...another reason is i dun have to see my instructor anymore...that is something worth celebrating for...haha...

and exactly 1 week later is my enlistment day..that is seriously depressing

~i stopped here just now cuz there were some problems with my connections~

anyway, as i said, it was depressing, i may meet more friends inside but i will miss my friends outside!no more freedom~...cannot go overseas, and botak will make me look stupid outside...grr..and they say guys will become more desperate once they are in army!!will i become so desperate??hahaha...

sianz...counting down.....

really wish to talk to u...

2010-07-18T05:24:00.001+08:00

i love the feeling when i can play a new song!

finally one and a half page for the 2nd movement of pathetique...

Happy birthday mum!

2010-07-09T23:03:00.002+08:00

today is my mum's birthday! but all i did was just to play a birthday song for her..
i guess she would be happy anyway...

hope u have a good day...=)

dillema..

2010-07-09T01:26:00.003+08:00

seriously its such a sickening thing to make decisions.

i really wonder if i should opt to upgrade my pes status during my bmt, or just slack through the two years of ns. its like whats the point of upgrading if i dun even wanna sign on? and if i really sign on, will i be able to endure that kind of life with no freedom to do things that i want. should i really opt to upgrade pes just for that few hundred dollars of pay. another thing is pes C do not have to serve ippt which means no bonus money to earn even if i can get silver or gold for my napfa.zzz...come to think of it, as a guy, i think i should at least experience what its like to go for a road march, and other things which pes A or B do.>.< whats worse, the thing im looking forward to!THE SOC! crap man...my pes status is excuse from that!!go die la..whats wrong with flat foot man!..i really duno what should i do. ill be going in in around 3 weeks time. time really flies..just a blink of eye....

whats more?i wonder where can i go study after my ns. haiz...i dun think i will choose to go working 1st..becuz i think i will not have the idea of going studying after i start working. furthering my studies is also good for my work in future too. after all, i think it still comes down to money problems.zzz....sianz

grrr, no mood sia...

i really need you...
you've been my best listener...

SPAIN INTO FINALS!

2010-07-08T18:14:00.002+08:00

last night was spain vs germany!and spain won!

it was the 1st match that i watch for world cup 2010. reason being i think the the quality of online stream is too lousy. and i didnt subscribe to cabletv too.=(

anyway, some things really brings back memories when i watch ytd's match.
haiz..duno what to say to either...

you are so sticky~
cuz you cant be separated from my mind..

don't know what to do...

2010-07-06T02:50:00.002+08:00

i seriously hate waking up in the middle of the night. thats the reason why i don't sleep early. its just so sickening now that i have totally nothing to do.

i only have a few choices,
watching shows, play piano, or go back to sleep which i can't really do that.

zzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-06-29T23:06:00.004+08:00

recently i read someone's blog, i really agree with the content in it. it says that, you know, a true friend does much more than mere finger-pointing and gossiping. True friends help each other along the way, walk alongside each other, give the other party a pat in the back when things go well, and even give you a scolding when you’ve gone overboard/ done the wrong things. Yes, you were there when things were good. But where were you when I most needed you?

How much do we actually worth? And what is the value of you? It isn’t the clothes I wear, the type of friends I have, my fashion sense, the house I live in or the brand of my car that defines the value of me. I think, we’re only worth what we have inside us.

I also think that life is like a race, its just a different kind of race. Some people ran the marathon with me, but you passed me the baton and left me to run the remaining race alone. To those who’ve ran with me, picked me up when I fell and scraped my knees - thank you for being there and knowing what went on in my life, thereby understanding the changes I’ve been through. Thank you for still being here with me right now. To those who’ve passed me the baton and expected to meet me at the finishing line while I struggled alone to get there, hmm..

I’ve tried. And it just isn’t me to try to prove things. But you need to know that, sweet or sour, I cherish every single bit of our friendship. However I write, whatever I do, people will only perceive things the way they want to perceive things. I cannot change that, but I will keep living.

Actually, almost 95% of this post is copied, but it shows 100% of my own perceptions and feelings. Thanks to this person who post this post. Sorry i copied some things and no acknowlegement was made, haha, but I guess you wouldnt mind to let me copy some things. =)

sickening.

2010-06-27T02:46:00.002+08:00

can i call life interesting or sickening? i really wonder, those passerby A or passerby B in your life, wad do they really mean? i dunno how to put all my feelings into words. i believe it must have a reason that they appear in your life. be it good or bad, there will definitely some lessons to be learnt. sometimes i wonder too, are they really true to you, so just putting on a show on the surface. i feel that its too hard for me to judge it, as the saying goes, 人心难测.

i really agree that you will make your bestest friend when you are younger. as you grow older, most of them are probably what they call acquintance..grr, whatever it is spelled, im too lazy to check it out. i think im a thinker! alot of stuffs really go through in my mind. but i really duno if that is a bad or good thing. in fact, i dun like that part of myself, becuz i prefer to not have that trait as a guy. i think as a guy, we should be more straightforward in expressing themselves.

sometimes, i really hope to have someone there to correct me. things i do, i might not even know that i was right or wrong. wad im going through now, probably no one will ever understands. wads worse, im one who keeps things to myself. so i wouldnt know how to confide to others. maybe if i did, the whole stories will not be told as well. haiz..i dunno wad i am typing now. tired...too tired...

a new skin!

2010-06-21T12:18:00.002+08:00

was too bored yesterday, so i decided to change a blogskin. i think it probably only took me half an hour to copy and paste everything properly. compared to the long period of time i took for 1 blog last time. haha...

too bored liao...

2010-06-21T03:13:00.002+08:00

ive been watching shows and shows nowadays. completed those old hk series and some jin yong stories series too. its all so awesome. some movies watched from funshion are good as well! "she's out of my league" and "when in rome". felt like its the same kind of show but well it did make some meaning to me.

went to expo for work a few days ago for the communicAsia 2010. its awesome la..so many babes..see until eye pop out. especially those from samsung and skype. i think i still remember those pretty faces..xDxD...apart from babes, its really an eye-opener for me cuz there are alot of new technologies. why wouldnt i think infocomm is such an interesting thing when i was in poly=.=

ok...i really have to do some work out already. getting out of shape. went swimming today with hw and ty, ok...they swam 10 laps...i planned to swim 10 laps too!~i really did!...LOL!..in the end i only swam 6 laps-.-

i really suck la...its been a while since i swim...and without my goggles, i cant swim properly too. shall get a goggle b4 going swimming again. its really tiring...and ill be going gym with sheena and darren soon..in like 10 hours time. haha...i think its at tampines. not really sure where but i promise ill do a real workout..XD

you seem to be doing well...
im glad...

2010-05-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

how come im starting to hate all these things now...zzz

listening to these songs just make me felt better and worse too...i dunno why i have these feelings...

u are in my mind everytime...

2010-05-29T02:13:00.001+08:00

sian sian sian~

why my life seems so mundane now...

its missing something.grr....

life without target

2010-05-25T13:53:00.002+08:00

i really hope i can get into ntu after my appeal. haiz...why is studying so difficult?zzz...i know appealing into related course might be easier to get in but i think ill die in an uglier way if i do that becuz i will not like wad i will be studying. Please just let a miracle happen!!

at least i will have sth to show and not be a nobody to you.
does everyone work so hard for people to acknowledge their existance?

2010-05-23T14:56:00.001+08:00

i must have owe you in my previous life...

even now im still missing you...

2010-05-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

hi blogger, im back again after so long. sorry for being a jerk nelecting you and only finding you when i am feeling sad. but i really got no other choice. i dunno who to talk to. my friends cared for me i know, but i couldnt talk to them about this becuz i should have listen to them long ago. so i shouldnt go to them when im hurt again. As for my parents, i've never talk to them stuffs like this as well. I think they wouldnt understand anyway. so without anyone to talk to, ill just have to find you!Pls just compromise me.

i guess not everything has its happy ending. it started and ended but doesnt end so beautifully. haha..what a joke. i duno wad i did was right or wrong, whether i will regret it, i really duno. i guess it doesnt affect u much, but im telling you that it has become a stone in my heart. im too sensitive for a person. thats what most people think too. i just hope everything will turn out just fine where both parties are satisfied.

1 thing about blogger is that it doesnt reply u anything unlike yr friends or whatever. it can be a good thing becuz sometimes advices are not always good. but it can be a bad thing as well cuz i wouldnt know wad step to take now. Life is such a sickening thing. i know we should look on the bright side of life. but im probably seeing more dark sides now.zzz

i guess im really taking it too hard. it will just be memories now. i hope the best for you too.
i dunno if you will read this becuz i dun really think u will visit my dead blog. but i still just wanna say thanks for everything too. i still duno if im over you...but ill try...ill try my very best...it will work out somehow.

msia;hobbies;random thoughts

2010-04-06T12:29:00.003+08:00

its been a while since i blog. getting the "lazy" feeling to type. sian...

just came back from malaysia two days ago for qing ming. well, its really nice seeing those relative in malaysia again. its really surprising that my childhood playmates are all married with kids now, havent seen them for like 4 years and im actually a grand-uncle already.zzz....freaking hell. and they are all so young, oldest are probably 26 only. Life in malaysia are so different compared to singapore.

oh and my cousin cooked wild boar meat!!damn!its really nice man!better compared to normal pork. i hope i have the chance to try it again!too bad its illegal in singapore. i heard that last time my eldest uncle always cook wild boar meat too, but i only know that he can cook longtong and roti prata. i really still miss his cooking but ill never have the chance to taste it again.=(

anyway, we went to temple as well!gosh!its damn nice and fun! there are so many interesting stuffs. like walking over the bridge for good luck. and even "改云洞" for us to crawl under it for 1 round. so cool!next is the yue lao temple!its my 1st time seeing a yue lao temple cuz i dun really see it in singapore's temple. its pretty interesting too!cuz the temple is actually facing the sea, and theres actually this jetty called "情人桥头", couples are supposed to get 2 red ribbons and a lock and they are to tie it on the jetty and lock it with the lock.after which they are supposed to throw the keys into the big sea.and theres actually a meaning for it but i dun really remember.ITS SO COOL!i wish i will be able to do it with my partner next time.kinda romantic in a traditional way.HAHAHA!we were rushing for time so din really get to explore more stuffs.sad, but theres always next time.^^

ahhh!my basketball is deproving!and im getting fatter and fatter!zzz, its just that i dun have a goal anymore. even that i do train now, i couldnt play in a competition. its just depressing that i couldnt excel in these areas that i like. Even for piano, i feel like im stucked at this stage for now already, how can i improve? i really wanna improve my sight-reading but i duno wads the trick behind it!..grr!!!frustrating...but i definitely will not give up this two things, its my favourite after all...

i wish i can know what you are thinking and feeling...
i wish i can be there for you no matter what...
i wish you can be there for me too...
i wish i have one more chance...

2010-03-14T01:23:00.001+08:00

i found this on my friend's blog...

5 Keys To A Successful Relationship

Having a successful relationship takes work from both partners. Great relationships don’t always come easy. If you find the right partner, that’s half the battle. But, no matter how long you’re with that person, you have to continuously work on your relationship and try to find ways you can improve it.

The following are 5 keys to a successful relationship.

Communication- I can’t stress the importance of communication enough. If you aren’t able to open up and talk about things, than you don’t have a solid relationship. When people have things on their mind and let them go without discussing it, it usually manifests itself elsewhere.

For example if something your partner said hurt your feelings and you don’t talk about it, you might find yourself getting annoyed at everything they do. You may start nitpicking at them. In reality it’s not those little things bothering you but what they said that hurt your feelings.

Without communication, many of us hold a grudge. Holding a grudge is definitely not productive for a relationship. One important rule about communications is to talk in a respectful manner. Just spewing out whatever is on your mind in any tone of voice is not communication. Talking is great but if you don’t do it with respect, it’s pointless. Also remember to not only talk about things but to be a good listener too.

Honesty- Being honest and not lying is crucial to a good relationship. Even “white lies” are not healthy for a good relationship.

Trust- If you can’t trust your partner, than there’s a problem. You know you’re in a good relationship when you don’t worry about your partner cheating on you. Those thought aren’t on your mind at all. You never worry when your partner is working late. If you find that you’re becoming suspicious of your partner, than that’s not a good sign.

Respect- A healthy relationship has a key element of mutual respect for one another. Its okay to disagree but you must respect each others opinions and differences.

Dependability- It is important to have dependability in a relationship. Having a partner that is dependable and reliable will give you a great sense of security within the relationship. When times are tough and you hit rocky patches in your life it is important to know that somebody will be there for you.

hmm...

BANGKOK!

2010-03-13T21:17:00.002+08:00

Im home in singapore!!alright, actually im home two days ago. Bangkok is really an exciting trip for me. Its my first time taking a plane!Felt so awesome!but then its just budget airline. Im gonna take singapore airline the next time. I bet it will be much more cooler!

Lazy to write about what I did, but its been an eye opener for me since bangkok is kinda different compared to singapore or malaysia. I think bangkok is still for girls-.- cuz most fashion stuffs that are really nice are meant for girls whereas those for guys are like stuck in the oldies fashion. which means that i couldnt find much things that i wanted. but the food there are nice!i wish i can bring back the milktea sold there. its so different from those tehpeng sold in singapore.

Went to IT fair at suntec today. damn!SO MANY PEOPLE!!!walk until damn pissed. but i still manage get myself a new earpiece.CHEAP AND GOOD! and ty got himself an olympus digital camera. makes me wanna buy 1 too. but im too poor. next IT show will be my turn to get a camera!woot!.

ok im off to watch tooth fairy!

2010-03-02T00:26:00.002+08:00

sian...its super boring...

watch lots of shows...

i think tinkerbell and the lost treasure is a really nice show!i totally love the OST in that show. and i think hannah montana is great too!!after watching the movie, im really liking the series now.its kinda funny...

and i also played lots of piano today...but lesson is postponed...well...more practise then...

major scales..
minor scales..
contrary scales..
chromatic scales..
both hands chromatic scales..
contrary chromatic scales..
broken chords..
arpegios..
studies..
songs..
pop songs..
lame songs..
old songs..
zzz..

i wanna exercise!who wanna go w me?staying at home is making me weak....

i need to get back my stamina, i need to buck up and not let people look down on me!
GYM GYM GYM!i think im going there tomorrow. its also to prepare for the napfa test by john. its actually kinda sad cuz it will be after my bangkok trip and how am i suppose to keep my shape at there?-.- goodluck to myself.

im so hungry again~..

nth to do...

2010-02-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

grr!!its worst graduating!i have nothing to do now!...zzz

my cough is super irritating, it just couldnt get any better!dextromethorphon is totally like shit!taste super badly and it doesnt help also, damn it!!

BORING DAY!...i wanna watch wolfman!

LAST PAPER!!!

2010-02-22T22:47:00.003+08:00

WOOT!!alright!last paper on thursday!got to hang on a while more!!then it will be holidays!!!super cool man!

today firewall was still alright la, not too difficult but still some trick qns.hope i can pass and ill be happy.ha...

oh and jiahui was leaving for korea!!!and i freaking dunno about it la!!zzzz...i think i should just concern more..LOL...

i duno why im feeling so excited now!i was fidgeting around my chair!and i was singing and singing nonstop!freako!calm down!wads wrong with you(me)!!!

ok thats lame!

im coughing nonstop again la!!damn!all these medicine are no use and wasting money only! i wonder what can really cure my cough.zzz

OH!MT finally replied me!damn..its the 1st time someone ignore me!...and for the 1st time its for DAYS!!!zzzz...the feeling of being ignored really sucked big time!she say next time i try again, it will be for WEEKS!-.-wad sia...

ok..i wanna watch movie. NEXT WILL BE WOLFMAN!WOOOOO~~~

the end of poly life...

2010-02-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

bad year!!!bad day!!!no..not really a bad day...but stressful day...

i got totally no mood to study...

i just wanna download movies on funshion and watch!!

i am so into piano!its fun!!i like learning new songs!!!but i still dun like reading notes!!!!

i'm so gonna fail tmr cuz im not studying, instead im blogging!!

i failed BTT AGAIN!!!bloody hell!!!

alright...its very funny, but i dun feel happy about leaving sch soon, but i also dun feel sad about it. cuz i think it just mean a new start for me again at some other place. its crap, but i dun really feel excited about ns. it probably gonna make me feel even down than at this moment.zzz

AHHH!!!its the last lapse already!and im still slacking here.JS!!do u really wanna get into uni?if yes!u should study now!!and stop fb-ing already!!!zzz...

i know wad i should do, but i just dun do it!!!grrrr...

sorry blogger!!i need some place to vent my frustrations!..

vanessa carlton - a thousand miles!i feel like learning this piece man!!...that show white chicks is super funny.lol....

i seriously need you here la=(

2010-02-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

新年快乐！！情人节快乐！！

今天是个很特别的日子，所以我也试着特别一点，用华语来blog!也不是什么标准话语啦！
哈！真希望能够多得到一些红包，好让我去泰国的时候能有多一点钱花。

咳~~可是这个新年cum情人节怎么会那么安静呢？新年不该是多热闹一点吗？真的是一年比一年无聊！连情人节都是一个人，马年还真的是不好。

希望能在初一的这一天能有一些意外的收获，意外的惊喜。。。

Tremendous amount of thoughts...

2010-02-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

hmm, i seriously agree with what show luo said...i guess sometime its not about having girlfriend only. Its about having that special someone who are always there to give you the concern and care just to keep you going on. Its the feel of warmness you will feel from those care and concern. Ha...when will i get to feel that warm??i hope it will be from you...

i wonder if you will pass by here and read this...
i have not...
i really have not...i dunno...
i might break a promise this time...

anyway, i watched the show that is host by christopher lee and quan yifeng. i really think that they are awesome man!being a star themselves yet they are able to volunteer themselves and do all those shit jobs. i feel that we people are really fortunate to be able to live in such a great conditions. i really dunno how did those people that were shown on tv are able to live in such terrible house. Those living conditions will definitely affect our health and mood. To be specific, its just like a rubbish dump.zzz...i hope that i may have a chance to do these volunteer works cuz i think that helping these more unfortunate people is really great. you probably will feel a sense of achievement as well.

Lastly!LAOLAO!i wish u a speedy recovery!!!although i did not get a chance to speak to you at NUH today as i got to leave earlier, i sincerely hope that you will be fine. Any gods out there will not let a talented basketballer go to waste! you will be able to fly on court soon enough!xDDDD

i really couldnt concentrate on my final lapse of my studies...
too many stuffs are running through my mind...
most probably is you...

sian

2010-02-06T13:29:00.000+08:00

3 merlion-s was born ytd!LOL...

coolios!!

2010-01-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

WOOT!!!im super high today!!..cuz i PASSED by NAPFA TEST!ok...not totally all the stations are done by me, haha...must really give my thanks to kenneth. if not i would have to retake again.zzz...

im actually suppose to do 5 pullups in order to pass, but weakling me~i just couldnt reach that amt.so ermhm!sth has to be done. yeah...den i broken 3 of my records!!!thats wad im proud about!for shuttle run, first time in my life i reached 8.98s..omg!cannot explain my happiness. its also a second run did i get this timing. im like really over the moon la!next up is standing broad jump, well not very far, but my original distance was 226 but i jumped 235 today=.=wad a big difference...zzz..ok but im happy too at least a C grade. NEXT UP, my 2.4km!!!omgosh!!!im happy but disappointed too. happy is becuz i got at least a Cgrade for a timing of 11.05min..and surprisingly i came in first out of the big lots of people who are running...i din even realise that until i reach the finishing line..thats another achievement for me as well..but its not really a big deal cuz im only 11min-.-im actually aiming for below 11. a tremendous amount of stuffs are running through my mind when i was running. i guess those are the things that made me pushing myself harder when i was running. the other two stations which are the situps and sit and reach probably i reached the Agrade already..so i didnt bother to break my own record.haha..but overall...if i can get my pullups..ill probably get an gold award already...but now its silver..no worries!silver can be exempted from first two months of NS already..WOOT...thats enough liao!.

next im gonna talk about my NIECES!!!!....i really have SUPER ALOT of nieces which i dun even rmb how many do i have...zzzz...ok lets count now...
1.sheena
2.sarah
3.jiahui
4.xinhui
5.xinrong
6.xinyi
7.gabrielle(1 year old!)
8.amanda(around there also)
9.raynee(i guess also that age?~.~)
ok...7 8 and 9 are super duper damn cute!!!i think my cousins are really good!they are so pro in making cute and beautiful babies...LOL..they made me feel like wanting to just get married and have my own baby!LOL..i wonder if mine will look as suave!or pretty! as them!HAHAHH
hmm...thats about 9 nieces that i have in singapore!i hope i didnt miss anyone out in singapore...THEN..i haven included those in malaysia!!!i think i have probably another 10 there...zzz..which i dun know them and dun rmb seeing them when im young too...lol..its a "nu er guo"...a female family!zzzz i only have 1 nephew in singapore...OMG...i really starting to imagine when all these kids grow up and then get together for gatherings...the house will be full of girls girls girls...zzzz....i hope my child will be a guy...HAHAH...he will be so fortunate to be surrounded by girls...ok...think too much...im still 19 going 20 and dun even have a gf now...ahhaha...

ok now is sch work!FYP ENDED!WOOT...*OPEN CHAMPAGNE!*lol...i think that really lifts off a big load off me...then for now i can concentrate on my subjects studies...and wait for graduation...some feelings that cant be put to words...i think i cant wait to leave SP...but i also bu she de to leave...aiya...dunno how to explain also la...all will be explained when time comes...hehe...

some things i wanna accomplish after blogging this post...although these doesnt really link up to the post..oh well..
first..i wanna improve my piano playing!basically rhythm sense and sight reading...
next..my studies...i wanna get into NTU...
thirdly...i hope i can improve my fitness...i can do pullups easily...den play better basketball if im fitter!!!....

ok i think my hands are really tired now...gtg~

2010-01-16T01:55:00.002+08:00

bad day...

fail btt...stupid qns...

fail napfa..just becuz of pull ups...

sian...

busy~~~

2010-01-12T01:27:00.002+08:00

BUSY!BUSY!BUSY!!
this freaking word had been bugging me for a while...its like time is so precious and running out super fast!...just after the spinnnovex,i need to worry about the next presentation.zzz!now need to find a day which im free to take my napfa,omgosh!i think take or no take also no difference for me.i've been skipping my basketball training and i dont even take initiative to go jogging or wadever gym myself.Its not im not discipline ok!just that im always too tired after a day of work in sch or wherever. i even have lesser schedule for myself at work now.reason being "BUSY". im really sorry that i have to keep changing my schedule for work, but i have really no choice cuz freaking SP is so LAME and disorganised...zzz. And now, i have to keep going to the medical centre for my checkup,freaking hell!!!change appointment also cannot.think wad!dua bai!!!zzz.anw,just get over with it and just assign me to some lame PES!.dont really care about my NS though.

SIAN LA!!!i really wonder if i can get into a uni in singapore.my results really suck!its becuz of that stupid java programming which i totally got no clue to go about doing it!and it cost a downgrade of 0.5 for the GPA during year 1...GRRR....
shuckS!most probably my studies should be stuck at diploma level.cuz i think my parent will not be sponsoring me if i do choose a private uni.AHH!crap...hard life...

whats more!im taking my BTT on 15jan!!zzz.i still haven even started studying the BTT book.i know its just BTT, but its better not to overlook it cuz there ARE ppl who fail BTT too!..grr...seriously i think 2010 totally suck!...so far not 1 good thing happen to me in 2010.pls let sth happen which will cheer me up at least a little!

another issue!my dad showed me an article on newspaper.it shows a chart of numbers where u add up your total HP number and it show whether its a good number or bad number.AND GUESS WHAT!MINE IS UNDER THE SUPER BAD NUMBER!!oh crap!!!not that im supertitious, but 2010 surely is not a good year for me!my dad keep bugging me to change my HP number to his!cuz he said his is under the SUPER GOOD NUMBER!.but i thought it was too troublesome, cuz i need to change everything for admin purpose.so i told him maybe next time. cuz its the same anyway, i dont think much things will change.NEXT, my MUM!SHE SHOWED ME ANOTHER ARTICLE!!!!it totally crashed my mood la!it says HORSE IS SUPER BAD THIS YEAR!!!CRAP LA....no wonder all those stupid little things happen to me.zzz i really wonder wad thing or wadever can just balance this shit...cuz too many bad things is not very good right!so i really need some good things to happen!!grrr....

falling deeper...how?

boring days...

2010-01-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

ahh...so bored....especially SPINNOVEX!!!zzz...
just get over with it and obtain a good result from it...thats all i wanted...grr...

anyway...some happy things and some bad things to write(well, i'm typing now..xD) about...haha...anyway...

first thing..I FINALLY CAN HAVE PIANO LESSON AGAIN!!!!WOOT!!.im seriously uber happy and excited about it!its like after so long...THANKS MT!! but you're gonna move away soon...hope we can meet up more often!!..=(

secondly, i finally got to talk to my idol!JIAMIN!went to suntec and saw her singing(awesome as always!)..then went up to talk since no one was there...felt happy that she still remembers me...anyway...congratz on winning the champion!!!always yr supporter!=p

third happy thing!!!spinnovex is ending in 2 days!...wowowo!! come some champagne pls!!!MUSIC TOO!!!DJ BEAT IT!!!!...its a call for celebration!!!!BECUZ ITS TOO BORING!!!!....CRAPPY...

some happy things are great...but unhappiness are not so desirable...
grrr...feels so weird typing out my unhappiness...i dunno why...so i guess ill just skip it...zzzz...

anyway...today is the telephone role-playing test...OMG!!!i seriously possesses super cock-eye and SHIT-STUFFED EAR!!!!i didnt see that the question says my event is from 8-12...and i said that i wanted whole day!!!resulted in EXTREMELY EXCEEDED BUDGET...OMGOSH!!!...and the whole role-play is like shit la...zzzz...IM SORRY PATSY!!!i think i drag u into it..=(...pls forgive me!!!...all in all...these kind of test really sucks!!...but u can really score well if you are NOT like me...so...lesson learnt...OPEN UP YOUR EYES AND EARS IN THESE KIND OF TEST!!!!DAMN!!!

ok...and this morning i went to jurong medical centre for my heart scan...super irritating...i still need to come back on 20jan...and appointment couldnt be changed cuz only that day is available..wad is this man!!!..and jurong is like super far la!!!...can such stupid medical centre be more considerate to us?!?!and those doctors act wad dua bai!!!everything must appointment when i saw the medical centre is like a ghost town...no people was there la!!!...so wad are the doctors busy with?!??!zzzz...but i have no choice!!since its for NS...i need to go...zzzzz crap...
i think just see wad the doctor say...better post me to a PES that im satisfied...if not waste my time check here and there when im all healthy...zzzz...

ok...next...i think 15 or 16 i forgot...im gonna go some clubs or pub cuz its alvin's birthday...omgosh...all i can say is that i really hate alcohol smell now...drinking sucks!!!...after those hangover and odours from drinking...i really wanna never ever drink again..but thats not possible...becuz if u go that kind of places with yr friends...100% guarantee plus chop!!they will offer u to drink...so...all u can do is control and not drink too much...and after seeing how jickson puke for TWO DAYS!!...i conclude that drinking is really super bad for health...thats why...CONTROL!!DONT DRINK IS THE BEST!!!...even now...the toner i bought from O2skin contains alcohol...even now i smell it...it seems more like martell,chivas,wadever drink it is rather than a toner...zzzz....i know this is so crap...but...ALCOHOL SUCKS!!!but i think it really gives you the feeling of "high-ness" when u are drunk...and forget about all the stress and problems u have...but i realise thats only for that period of time when u are drunk...everything just rushes back to you when you have recovered from the alcohol effect. its just like, you have to experience all the bad things ALL OVER AGAIN. isnt that worse?? i think drinking is not a solution to problems solving. all we should do is to face the problem!.i think thats part of growing up. everyone will have to go through it. so....better not to drink till dead drunk...the feeling just suck!

alright..i think ive type enough now...im goin to watch show le...xD

new year!

2010-01-01T14:47:00.002+08:00

hmm..why does it new year doesnt seems so special to me?i duno why...zzz...sian...

anyway, i watched the countdown at khatib...not a bad one...at least all the singers are really great...then i went home after that....grr...wad a countdown...if khatib can have some fireworks and that will be so nice!haha....i know marina have it...but NO ONE is going there to watch it la...zzz...1st reason being too many people and most of them do not like to squeeze around in the crowd...oh well...

next up!i think chipmunks 2 is awesome!!!they are all super cute!!!!...anyone have the OST to the show?aww~~the thought of that movie really makes me fall in love with them!new year wish:have 3 talking chipmunks or chippetes as my friend!that will be uber cool!!

haha..and i wanna watch sherlock holmes too!!!!alot of recommendation by friends...i think it will be a good one too!grr...but whos willing to go watch with me?....darn....

this new year is super sian la....i bet 2010 is not gonna goes well for me compared to 2009...ahhhh....this is so depressing...

can i have some surprises???at least that would cheer me up=(......

boring 2010..

fate..

2009-12-29T02:21:00.001+08:00

i don't want to lose it...
but i have no choice...
probably...thats fate...

sigh..

2009-12-28T23:29:00.002+08:00

tired~~~

probably thats my limit...probably i cant really improve anymore...
i may be pessimistic...but...everything doesnt seems right for me...
since everything started...since how everything progress...and till now...zzzz
what am i really good at??most people probably already asked themselves this questions alot of time...and...im not an exception...i do ask this question alot of times too, but it seems that i couldnt answer it since the 1st time i asked this question...sigh...

compared to you~i do feel kinda inferior...

anyway...nowadays i have nothing much to do...so i decided to watch some dramas...some intro-ed by friends and some ive found it myself...i really love 海派甜心...its such an awesome show!...but its only showing till epi 9...so looking forward to the rest of it la...
next is a jap drama called vampire boy...haha..not a bad show...but i like the anime version like vampire knight...the storyline is much cooler~...and im watching another jap drama call buzzer beat!...ITS SO DAARN GOOD!...it really shows how a basketballer thinks...and it dictates how a basketballer life is...highly recommended!...and im surprised some of my friends already watched it!....i thought im the first...oh well~...thats about all the dramas~~....im off~...

思考。。。

2009-12-26T19:28:00.004+08:00

爱上了。。。该有多痛苦啊。。。
想更了解对方。。。也希望自己被了解更多。。。
但是又要隐藏自己的身份。。。
毕竟对人类而言。。。吸血鬼是可怕的生物。。。
无论多喜欢。。。都得不到对方。。。
也不能表明心迹。。。

xmas fever!

2009-12-26T05:06:00.006+08:00

its the end of xmas night!...not a bad day outing with my poly friends...

TIMBRE is great!a superb place for chilling!well...no air-con though=.=...
anyway...its still a good place...

watched the treasure hunter-.-lame show...

a picture of us=)

how much i wished...=(

匿名的好友...

2009-12-25T15:55:00.002+08:00

杨丞琳 - 匿名的好友

作词:李焯雄作曲:陈颖见

独送昏暗不离的风回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
一起活在这城市迷宫提起你名字
心还跳动却没重逢
只留下碰却又不敢碰的那种激动
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
该怎么说让彼此选择但思念还转动

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
与你无关泪自行吸收
不能握的手却比亲人更亲厚
但所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的温柔最温柔

当又一次美梦落空回忆里被爱
那股激动天色好红
温柔好浓在胸口浮现你的面容
也许我们当时年纪真的太小
从那懵懵懂懂走进各自天空
那是什么让彼此选择又不仅是尊重

不能握的手从此匿名的朋友
其实我的执着依然执着
却决心和你不再联络
不能握的手却比爱人更长久
当所有如果都没有如果
只有失去的拥有最永久

HOLIDAYS!

2009-12-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

I SOOOOO WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY!!!!

damn...my mum dun wanna finance me in anything...zzzz...paying by myself for everything i want is such a heartache!

although all the money that i've earned is all my hardwork...but it still pains me to spend it all at once la!!!...grrr....

gonna save up if i wanna go bangkok and taiwan...damn...just hope chinese new year i can get a better earnings...then i will be a able to really go on a HOLIDAY!...

anyway...here i wish anyone who pass by here a very merry christmas!!!

i hope santa can bring me somethings...
#1. a happier life!
#2. more miracles!
#3. a vacuum cleaner that can suck all sad things.
#4. a device to make me smile everyday!
#5. something that can make me stronger(i dunno wad that will be!)

well...thats all...

lets hope for a wonderful christmas!=)

Beautiful melodies of life...

2009-12-23T02:04:00.002+08:00

The mellifluous and dulcet tones that guides me through my emotions...
The melodic music that makes me fall in love with it...
The pianoforte that brings out the blithe and melancholy spirits of me...

however, it all boils down to just you...
you are the one who made it possible for the music to fulfil its destiny...
else, it will just be another small little thing that just gone pass my eyes...

just to share...wonder who will pop by and listen to it..

2009-12-21T21:13:00.003+08:00

一开始我以为爱本来会很容易
所以没有经过允许就把你放心底
直到后来有一天你和他走在一起
我才发现原来爱情不是真心就可以

我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
明明知道没有结局却还死心塌地
我感动天感动地怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

I'm back!

2009-12-21T21:04:00.001+08:00

well...its been such a long time...just got the kicks to blog again...haha..i dunno when it will be gone again...sometimes writing is so troublesome too...but proobably im just too lazy...zzzz...but i will add more things and update to this blog=)

A NEW BEGINNING~

2009-12-21T20:46:00.001+08:00

a new blog!a new start!...
i hope i can do better in things i do...